I took a massive rip of water-filtered 15x this morning. It was quiet, I was in my room, I had a makeshift blindfold around my eyes. My intent was to experience something spiritually uplifting, since my previous experiences had been experimental with my friends, and always resulted in me unable to communicate, with one repeating thought in my head, feeling very self conscious and "naughty", and pretty much unable to walk or stand properly.

But anyway this morning I felt like I was set up just the way I should be. I took a fat hit, put my blindfold down, and layed on my back. It kicked in fast, and I found myself with my blindfold off again, staring at (a chair I think it was) feeling uncomfortable, confused, and nervous, with some random, stupid, repeating thought in my head, like "What is he doing?" repeated 50x, which then turned to "Oh my god, what if this mental bedlam never goes away"? In summation, I just get really confused and worried about nothing. What can I do?