bullied & hurt at different stages? of your life, and victimised to....and you remember how different people hurt you, abused you, and you didnt stand up to them and let them do it?
is that going to chip away at me for the rest of my life?

how can i get over the extreme anger and hurt i feel at being demoralized growing up? throughout my 20s..in my teens in high school...
im 30 now with borderline pd.....i keep having memories of these painfull times and its like i cant get over what people have done to me...
the damage feels immense.....& now i want do immense damage to my persecutors of the past.....intense rage....not a fire but a furness...obviously theres no way to get back at them people now...and i no its wrong to be ragefull and its destructive i know...i dont want to feel like this....but i feel like my persecutors of the past have got away with it...theyve left their mark..changed my mentality forever...corrupted my innocence...
can anyone see how i can get over this? because with all my belief i want to

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If you know it is deadly wrong and you wish to put a stop to it, then you yourself have to forget, forgive and don't do the same thing to others.
But if you think that you can bully others, then you will bully and torment others either to carry out a revenge or to make yourself feel better.
It is not easy putting a stop to all the stupid traditions and same thing that has been done for all the miserable years. Sometimes you feel that if you are treated so badly, why should you treat someone else so good ? Then you feel you want to bully. You have mixed feelings of feeling good and miserable, wanting to change and wanting to keep to the old ways. I think many of us are like this. That is why many people prefer to become bullies in order to feel better. But there are some who decide to change for the better.

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