I'm ONLY 20 yrs old yet I'm going through this hard time in my life that I can't explain. After losing someone and having to deal with loss, everything in my life has been changing. I've always been the type of person that dealt w. change very well but this time, it's getting me more confused and lost about everything.

I'm a student who wants to get into the medical profession. I've felt that i've come far w. my academics yet nothing has really started. I haven't been accepted to the school and it's getting more and more frustrating.

I don't really want to go out as much with my friends...when I do go out with them, it doesn't solve the problem and how i'm feeling. It doesn't make me "completely happy" like it did before. I'm glad to see them but it's not the same.

I'm losing 2 of my best friends...we used to talk all the time and be close and now things are just changing, I don't know how to deal. This sounds crazy but I feel so alone. I'm a simple person with simple desires. I'm very close with my family but they live in another state so I don't see them as much as other people. Spending time with cousins and other members makes me the happiest person. We could sit on the couch all day and talk and I feel very blessed.

I'm guessing the reason why I'm soo into my family right now b/c it's the only thing "stable" and "secure" in my life, but i don't have easy access as far as seeing or communicating (as much) with them.

WHY AM I LIKE THIS? IS THIS NORMAL? WILL THIS GO AWAY??
THOUGHTS? OPINIONS? ADVICE PLEASE!

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