please help! until now i still make my homosexual feelings as a big deal...i am so depressed of the fact that i have this feelings. i know very much that i have never choose to be like this...other things that make me feel bad is that i am a muslim and being a gay is really a big deal...i have a lot of goals but i dont really understand why is this keeping me down...honestly, though i am a gay, i've never into same sex relationship coz of the fact that it's a sin...sometimes it lead me to hate myself and even hate GOD because why he made me like this...before, i am really convinced that i have just choose to be like this and that there could be other way to change my feelings...but, i just found out that i could no longer overcome it. I just keep it myself and try to be happy by doing hobbies...TRULY, DON'T REALLY WANT TO BE LIKE THIS!!!!!it seems that i am losing my self...right now, i have very low self-esteem...
please help me what to do to finally put myself at ease! I AM SO DEPRES

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